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The new 30

May 19, 2006 |

As of a couple of hours ago I have managed to roll up half a century. The glimmerings of wisdom do not yet seem apparent.

In fact, what I find I come back to again and again is a deep sense of gratitude, thankfulness that things have turned out as well as they have. At forty I had hit a very big wall. Now that wall is a decade behind me.

I got lucky. Largely by ceasing to do things for which I was tempermentally unsuited and beginning to try my hand at things which I felt deeply drawn to.

Slowly, agonizingly slowly, some of those things are beginning to pay off. It would be grand if they paid off in the dollars and cents world and they very well might. What has, as my woo woo friends would put it, shifted, is the sense of bounding out of bed ready to work hard, enjoy the day, delight in Susan and Max and Sam, wonder about Simon, play with ideas and design and writing, walk, think and pray.

A few Stellas will see in the new thirty. And, I suspect, some sea glass searching and a bike riding lesson. Peace and abundance are where you find them. They are not the world’s gifts to you, they are your gift first to yourself and then to a world which needs them desperately.


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4 Comments so far

  1. Sean on May 23, 2006 7:39 am

    Congrats, fella. :-)

  2. Dr.Dawg on May 25, 2006 7:33 pm

    Happy birthday, Jay. Glad to see you on this side of the fence at last.

  3. Andrew Burton on May 28, 2006 10:06 am

    Welcome to the steep part of the wrong side of the hill. Hope your brakes are good.
    Many happy (belated) returns, mate.

  4. jay on May 28, 2006 11:25 am

    Andrew, surely steep is at the new 50 which, by my calculations is roughly 30 years out…

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